Rarg! 31 years old on Sat the 28th of June 2008.
Now I know I tend post things about how great everything is, and all those things I write about are great, and its all true.
Feel free not to read the following, it's just for me. Time to take stock of how things really stand.
I feel I need to the following statement.
<rant> My life has been hard.
It's been harder then you think.
The last year has been a lot less fun then I make out.
I'm still standing, but its taken it out of me.
I'm 6 works behind where I was this time last year.
I'm tired and unfocused a lot of the time, and slightly prone to lashing out at people that don't deserve it, and posting angsty DA journals.
I am recovering, and when I do I know all the work I've done in this state will give me a flying start.
</end rant> P.S. I will harm the next emo kid who comes up with "You're SOOOOO lucky! You don't undertand how hard it is for me!".
Consider yourself warned.
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Birthday rant.... 
Pirate
Devious Comments
-Being your own boss
-Following a whimsical muse
-FUNDS/supporting yourself and possibly a family
-Art directors and persnickety clients
-Feeling too darned deeply
Add that to the normal (and sometimes abnormal!) stresses in life, and you have a serious challenge. I won't get all emo, I promise...I'm far too long in the tooth for that...but I have to tell you I admire your work a great deal, relate to a lot of what you're going through, and I know you have the mettle to withstand it all and come out on top. All tides change. Your ship till come in soon...(Like the ocean analogies? I'm still jealous of hell about where you live. Sorry; can't help it!)
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I'm not crazy... I'm eccentric.
First of all.... I'd love to be able to juggle during my "office" hours. You're lucky!!!
O.K. seriously though.... what kind of artist would you be if you weren't angsty, depressed, worried, sad and all the other wonderful negativities that come with life? That's what clients expect of us!!! They don't want some happy dude with smiles painting unicorns and frolicking around.... wait....that sounds lunatic.... they may like that. O.K. my point is that these are the type of feelings the "normals" like about us.
Life has sucked for me too these past few months. It's been interesting to say the least, so..... if I can't relate to you in precise experiences at least I can relate in feeling "blue".
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A pirate I was meant to be, trim the sails and roam the sea...
I agree with all the above statements, it is in fact teh abnormal stresses of my life thats getting to me.
I've just got to the point where it's really sunk in that "Hey a huge amount of my life has not been normal/fair" and I have to say its not a positive change, living in denial has its advantages.
But yes I will survive, I guess its the recovery process, I actaully felt better while under the hammer, once you get out the other side and have time to think its like. "OMG that was fucked!"
arg....all so pointless talking about it when I'm not going to go into details.....thanks for listening though
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A pirate I was meant to be, trim the sails and roam the sea...
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